Operation Roxy - In Progress

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Coming to you from Sydney

How I can have done this to myself I will never know. I haven't developed good habits or coping mechanisms for being away from home and now on my 2nd trip away I have done the same as my first and put on a tonne of weight.

A few months ago I was looking at breaking into the 70's - a couple of weeks of work away from it. Now I am a 90's girl again and looking at months of hard work in front of me just to get back to where I was!

I am a person who needs to be here talking to you girls. Helping to support you actually helps me keep going. To report back to myself, or to you or to just jump on the scales and know my fate is something I NEED to do. By not stepping on a scale I allowed myself to be VERY blase about what I was partaking in when I was doing no exercise. Give me a few weeks of not having to step on those scales and you can guarantee the good Jadey I have spent more than 12 months creating disappears and the old Jadey makes a comeback. IN more ways than one.

I had a Body Composition scan done while I am here in Sydney. This is something that is going to tell me everything about me with no denying anything. When it told me I was 90.7kg I was ready to curl up and die. I just wanted to cry and cry and cry.

I have 44.1% body fat.
I am obese.

I disgust myself. Harsh but true.

So what am I going to do about it???

I am picking my head up - gunna let the tears flow but not get in the way. I am going to do it again. I start a new BFL challenge with Loz on Sunday (tomorrow) And in preparation today Loz and I went shopping and I bought myself a new Success Journal. I am working on my goals and I am going to get where I want to be.

We are going for a run in the morning on the boardwalk in Manly with another BFL'r named Trish. And I know it's supposed to be an UBWO day but it's ok to swtich the days when I need to as long as I do it!! Loz even bought new shoes.

I should only have 1 distraction in this 12 weeks. And it shuld be minimal a rally in the 6th week but it's in VIC thank God which means no spending weeks away from the gym.

This 12 weeks I am committing to me. A 12 week commitment to BFL will have me make TOTAL transformation where being away isn't going to make a difference because the old Jade will be dead and the New Jadey will SHINE! And trust me I will strut.

This summer will be my best ever.

Lozza - Thanks so much chicka. Without a friend like yourself I have no idea where I would be. Loz is doing a back to back on her challenges just to help me through this one. And I in turn will be helping her.

God has sent me so many angels. There is no way I can fail.
Posted by Jadey :: 9:57 PM :: 24 comments