Monday, October 09, 2006
A RETURN TO THE POOL
Today I made a return to swimming (if that's what you could call what i did.)
I used to be able to swim 50 laps and still want more. Today treading water and 3 laps (150m) Killed me! Would have helped to have my swimmers cap on so I wasn't choking on a mixture of hair and water when I turned my head to breath, but still. Last time I was at this pool it cost me $0.75! Today it cost $4.40 - it's been awhile huh.
I actually felt good when I put my new swimmers on. They flatten me out quite nicely and make me feel a bit skinnier (God bless brown) So apart from feeling like a drowning idiot in the lap lane & ony the slow was open so I was being run over by professionals! (I'm sure of it) I was at least body confident, if not in my swimming. I am alot smaller than I used to be and I'm making progress, why should I feel scared.
That is until a group of girls start laughing uncontrollably at "that fat ladies bum"
NOTHING but NOTHING is going to make you want to crawl into a hole and cry quicker than a bunch of girls actually pointing and laughing at you and then sharing the whole big joke with their friends in as loud a voice as they can manage. BUT then although there can be no mistaking it you look around to find the other "fat lady" they laugh about and you are the biggest person in a room no larger than a size 10. There's no one behind you for them to point at. Yep I'm a bit shattered. I keep thinking why should I worry about what a bunch of girls says and does to me? But I do. I do worry. I feel they are only saying out loud what others are thinking. I feel like a grand sumo.
Posted by Jadey ::
12:17 PM ::
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